One Big Hive

Aiyeee I've come down with a full blown allergic reaction to something. It is not fun. This is the second time I've had one, so at least I know what to expect and that it will go away at some point. Gawd, I still remember the first one scaring the living shit out of me in college. I was working desk, and all of a sudden I wanted to tear the skin of my palms off. Nothing like that to make you feel like you've gone psycho.

Itchy everything + weird allergy type heartburn = no fun or sleep.

I called the endocrinologist, she says it's not likely it's the thyroid medication because I've been on it for so long (4 years!), and that it's more likely it's the new pill, Yasmin. 2.5 weeks into it, I didn't stop taking it immediately because I thought - well, maybe I can make it to the 3 week point, where it won't be an issue, and I was also putting myself on some badly executed experiment where I'd delay taking one to see if it was the other, but not stop taking either entirely. But after a few tossing/turning nights, I finally called the dr. today about the hives so we'll see what she says. Either way, I refuse to take any more pills until this goes away. Scary shit, this is.

I know logically that my refusal doesn't make any sense, and that I should continue the thyroid medication because the most logical culprit is the Yasmin, but the inner animal part of me has thrown down it's heels. It is very, very weird to think that I am no longer exhibiting rational behavior, and not have a good explanation for it. If I were an outsider looking in, I'd probably shake myself. But the animal instinct wins - these pills are making me unhappy, therefore I will not take any of them.

Me + medication = retarded.

Me + calamine lotion/cortisone cream/chlortrimeton = less itchy, much less miserable May.

Me is sick of having something WRONG with me like every other week and would like a cheezburger pleez.