Nervous Behavior

Why is it that I am 25 years old and I still act like a complete buffoon when it comes to women.

Last night, I went with Anna to the Crystal Ballroom for their monthly swing dancing event. I feel a little bit more confident about my dancing... but not by much. I wanted Anna to go meet a man... so I didn't stand next to her and waited for some guy to ask her to dance. That happened pretty quick... and so I hunted for some girl to go dance with. I find this nice girl who seems really energetic... and very friendly. Talk for a little bit and then go dance.

Well, it seems when confronted with attractive women (not that Anna ain't attractive... but she's a friend)... everything I know about dancing disappears. I kept messing up... I couldn't remember ANY moves... and when I did try to lead her... I was incredibly stiff. She of course tried to help me out... but that didn't help much. Because I'm nervous... my brain shuts down and I'm not able to do things properly. We danced for a couple more dances and then she said she was thirsty. At that point, I should have said, "Oh... I'll go get you some water." What came out instead was, "Nice to meet you. Thank you for the dance!" And off I went. Why oh why God do I do these things? I didn't ask for her number or anything. Grr... punch me now.

I did have a lot of fun overall at the dance... and Anna and I just practiced moves. I kind of wish I had a constant dance partner that was at the same level as me (Anna is definitely much better so I feel bad for being so crappy)... but as long as I keep dancing. Last Sunday was my final dance class for Beginner 6-Step... we are looking at starting Beginner Lindy Hop... so we'll see how that goes.

By the way, for those in Portland area... on May 26th (a Friday) the Crystal Ballroom is having another dance. For those in town... you should go... lots of fun. I think from 6:30 - 8:30 they have various dance lessons... and then 8:30 - Midnight they actually have DJ'ed dancing.