Dating travails.
So I met this guy, right? And he's cool and gives me butterflies when I see him. And a week later he actually calls and renews my faith in myself and in men...and then I get to know him and he's...dissapointing. It's like all that anxiety and anticipation were totally unnecessary. Particularly the anxiety....it was like being in middle-school all over again!
It's like finally opening up a birthday present and finding a toaster. I really hate dealing with dissapointment...usually I try to not expect so much in the first place, but I have never been able to do that with guys. (god, remember janacek? what a waste of air!) Life seems so much more gray and boring today. I want that frisson back!
(I guess I should clarify that Mike and I are taking a break or amicably broken up or whatever euphemism you want to use. If you want a better explanation give me a call.)
Fuck it. I'm moving to Texas and moving in with Wahby. Then I could play Katamari, go mountain biking and maybe go to law school with Anna. I'll find some body of water (its texas, i'm dreaming, i know) to kayak in and build a shack on it. I'll convince Ali to move down to take care of my four bf dogs, the rest of you will follow out of the sheer magnetic force of so many cool people in one place, and I'll be the coolest spinster ever.
Why is it so hard to find a physical AND mental connection?
Current love: One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia Marquez.
I agree
I mean... I know things aren't the way you want... but Texas? I lived there. It's not your type of place... believe me.
I'd only go to Texas for Wahby.
Its really more about going where my friends are congregating than really moving to Texas...steers and queers? Normally, no thank you. I was pretty upset, but I'm feeling much better now that it's out of the system and I'm back in control. Its funny also, because Mike and I started dating only after I'd given up on guys and had a similar feeling of "fuck it, I'm going to be the coolest spinster ever." So I know how you find awesome relationships--by accident when you don't need one. What I don't know is what you do with all the sub-par ones that come by.
Wow
Texas? You must be really, really upset about this whole thing. Texas? Wow.
Good luck in the relationship game, May. In my experience, you find the good ones when you aren't even looking.